I'm very sorry to report that after all that sturm und drang - I ended up not going to the party! Before the arrows start flying, let me explain.
That's it. Been messing with Cam since Thursday evening, but didn't make the decision that I was waaay too tired to head out to a party at 7pm Saturday until 430pm Saturday. Yes, that's right, I was giving up hope until the last moment. Forget that I didn't get out to get a mani/pedi. But was that going to stop me? No way. I was going to put on some very un-Roman flat skimmers instead. And that was because I didn't get out to buy sandals like I wanted. Was I discouraged? Nope. I was going. I even reiterated that to MC Friday afternoon - promised to tell him all about it.
Seriously, I really am disappointed that I didn't go. My decision to go by myself had morphed into a societal statement on the status and freedom of single women. But forces were against me -- I guess I should have known when Cam's dad could not take him for the night. Usually, he's v good at taking him when it's not his weekend. However, he was scheduled to be out of town. And, single parents know that arranging and finding folk to take care of temperamental, sick toddlers is no easy feat. I was/am ready to get away from the continuous loop of Thomas the Tank Engine house arrest I've been under since Friday night. Oh well. What also haunts me is that if I had a date, I would have had to cancel and throw a wrench in all their costume travails. Then how silly would I feel? Guess all's well that ends well, right?
But, this is the compromise for you DRs. Since I've cancelled everything, including picking up the Dadster for the usual every other Sunday lunch, due to sicky Cam, I'm having GF Tracy come over and take my picture in the outfit I was planning to wear (wig included). I don't know if I can muster up make up, but I hope I will be able to scare up a reasonable facsimile of what I planned on looking like last night. I will post the pic as a separate post later tonight. And I'll take one of Cam in his diaper, looking like Mowgli without a tan. It's not a play by play of how fione I looked and how all the men slavishly fell at my feet, but hey, it's something!
ME: I've got good news and I've got bad news.
MC: Oh yeah? What is it?
ME: The good news is I finally figured out where the heck the party is. It's way too far for you, so I'm letting you off the hook. I'd never ask anyone to drive that far. I'm going alone...in the cutest outfit I can find.
MC: Where is the party?
ME: Los Alamitos. I had no idea; that's not what it said on the invitation. It said Rossmoor. I've no idea where Rossmoor is.
MC: Those orgies are secret; they don't tell you where they're being held.
ME: Well, if that's what the party turns out to be, I'll have to tell you all about it...
MC: What's the bad news?
ME: Well, you won't be spending a scintillating evening with me.
MC: (laughs) That's true...
ME: But I'm sure the news makes your week.
MC: Which one?
ME: The bad news...
MC: (interrupts) The bad news?
ME: No, I mean the good news. God, selling myself short there, huh?
MC: (laughs) Yeah...
And then on to work related stuff.
That exchange didn't go exactly as I'd hoped, but.... on the bright side, I'm letting go. Other opportunities will come. And if they don't.... I'll let go of being mad at the universe for doing right by me.
The bad part, DR, is that I will not have pictures of MC & I to post for your enjoyment (and envy). It'll just be me - but I'm willing to share.
Everyone who knows me well, knows that I am decidedly not a religious person. However, I am very spiritual. I guess you could call me a smorgasbord spiritualist. It doesn't matter where the sentiment comes from if it speaks truth to power. I got emailed this little ditty the other day and by goodness, if I did not mail it out to a host of my girlfriends before you could bat an eye.
I am forever trying to let go of the pain, the doubt, the fear; reminding myself that if it is meant to be, it will come to me. I try, each day, to banish the fear and live in love. And love is letting go. We all need to be reminded – if we let go, we let the love flow to us rather than away from us. A picture of my favorite piece of art in the world is below. As a mother, I cannot imagine how it felt to let go of that - of her son. Yet, the acceptance is something that Michelangelo was able to give a slab of marble. I imagine he went with the flow. And so it is.
Let it go for 2008...
by T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this!
When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you.
I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The bible said that, They came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have, He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.
Stop begging people to stay… Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains.. LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth... LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge… LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents... LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude... LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better... LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him... LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship... LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves... LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed... LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2008!!!
LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left... think about it, and then LET IT GO!!!
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